Not about me

I’ve always been able to go to battle for someone else. If someone else needed prayer and fasting I could do it. If someone else was trying to get a discount on something I could be the master negotiator. If someone else needed to make a phone call, to get favor and their point across I could do it for them. However, when it comes to my stuff or getting what I wanted I couldn’t always do it. I would feel sorry for the person I was trying to get the deal from or I would think, ah, it’s not that big a deal if I don’t have that. I always want something for someone else soooo bad. I so badly want them to get their breakthrough or healing. Some identify this as low self-esteem, some say weakness towards others, some say giver. What about it’s in my nature to be a servant? To ensure other people’s breakthrough? For me it’s usually easier to do something for some else’s benefit. So I’m certain once again of God’s calling on me. Sometimes I have to be reminded God chose the right person because ministry is not about me.